Just So I Can Be With You

You once opened up
the door to my heart.
Sometimes I still see you
in my dreams
sometimes we make love
the most wonderful sex
just as it used to be.
Other times
we just lay in bed
holding one another
whispering
Sharing how we’ve both
missed these moments.
I question myself, I say
“Is this a dream?
Am I asleep?
No way!
This is too real
too vivid”
Then I wake up
And I feel a pain
like a small knife
piercing my heart
It hurts
not like it used to
but it hurts
as the memories
and emotions come
flooding back.
Sometimes the gods
can be so cruel.
After a moment or two
I fight
to get back to sleep
just so I can be with you
for a little longer